There is beauty in the waiting.
so I am told – but its tough to see
Sifting through all the debris.
When it feels like an open wound
And it looks like your Everest.
That mountain isn’t moving
Nor the injury improving.
Few experiences bring about more
Anxiety, grief, uncertainly and doubt
then that of waiting.
Beauty in the waiting?
That needs some validating.
I don’t like to wait.
I curse the obstacles in my way.
our instant society
make high anxiety just one of the varieties.
The shortest distance between to points
is a straight line
but that road isn’t always fine.
and science proves that
waiting for things makes me happier.
sadly
I trade it for an “unhappy her”
I echo the words of Paul Tripp
and I feel his pain as he explains:
“I tend to put myself in the one place I am never supposed to be
I want to be the one thing that I should never crave to be.
I fall delusion that I am wiser than God and my way is better than His”.
Sin ravages my heart
And affects all it’s Counterparts.
I Hate to Wait
A shattered dream – A broken heart – What’s left of me but pieces thrown apart?
A well-meaning friend says
things aren’t falling apart,
they are simply falling into place?
But this serves as no comfort
more that of disgrace
Falling into place?
When just this week a daughter fights for her life
Though Hundreds pray
She may still not get to stay.
Years before
yet another friend,
Just as many people implore
But a saved life was not in store.
There has to be more than I can perceive
Perhaps there is something I can receive?
Genesis accounts for every bit of pain the world has ever known – even the dysfunction of my Thyroid hormone
Alas!
Christ was worth the wait since Genesis 3
A choice was made in haste – that apple ate
The world waited centuries for their sins to be put back on the tree
Now I can see.
Waiting has always been part of the story.
Christ bore the weight of my sin – now I am invited in.
To be part of a story far greater than myself.
And not fall prey to every man for himself.
While the solutions don’t come and the questions are left
He simply asks me to be still.
Be still and know that He is God
There isn’t anything He hasn’t seen
There isn’t anywhere He has not been
There isn’t a time He hasn’t existed
He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end
A wise man said
My brother, that is,
“If the message is not empowering,
It is incomplete”
So let these words sink into your bone marrow and give you strength to endure.
His ways are higher and His plans are always good.
God has already been where you have stood.
No matter the circumstance
No matter the trial
We can trust in His Holy name.
But the question remains.
Am I willing to wait?
Will I give my life back to the One who holds it?
And simply ask that He grant me the wisdom and grace to let Him mold it.
Because of Him.
I am strong.
I am courageous.
I am a daughter of the ONE TRUE KING.
no more debating
I’m humbly restating
We ARE the beauty in the waiting.
*1st spoken word attempt at the Awaken Conference 2017, Elmira, Ontario. Quoted words are not words of my own but that of Paul Tripp and Derrick Bauman (https://www.instagram.com/derrickbauman)
teachable spirit. 